Start Fresh: welcome to Peach Be the Journey
Welcome to the start of a new Blog page by myself, Olivia Carol Williams... I often go by Olivia Peach is my art name... If you have known me for a long time, you may know that... I used to have a website called Olivia Peach, I’m planning to have that up soonish... The title of this page is “Peach be the Journey” a play on words of one of my newer mantras this past year... an old saying from a movie called Cool Runnings... They would say in the film, “Peace (instead of Peach) Be the Journey” which means “go in peace” or “safe Journey” SO I have started this, because I think I need an outlet, My own journey in writing... and I love writing, and I think it’d be cool to share my thoughts and life, outside of FB, and if people are really interested or engaged in what they are reading, it’s a great way for me to engage with those people... I’ve had other blogs in the past, the Mother Dome was one, and I loved it and it’s still up, but I just think I want something out there that’s a little more real, a little more me...
This was my train of thought today... I was going to post this on FB, but decided to not do that.. and rather just start this new blogger...
In this Covid world, so many things are changing in my personal and professional life... some things however remain the same... I am a mom to an incredible kid with High Functioning Autism, ADHD, ODD, and anxiety. I am a step mom to a very intelligent, and sassy 12 year old, about to be 13... I have a funny, smart handsome fiancé, who I owe so much of my well being to, and overall support in my life. Life is never easy, and becoming a merged family had been intense.. The journey very real... and I have to say my world is a lifetime of different than is was 10 years ago, or even five years ago...
In the last ten years of my life, I went from moving to GA from NYC, a place I lived for almost 9 years, to being married, to being a mom, to being an autism mom, to then being a single mom with a kid with autism and living with my parents, and then finally 3 plus year later finding my now fiancé, and building a life I never thought I would be living... but I’m doing it... somehow, miraculously, and at almost 40 years old, I look back and see how much I have gotten through... it’s some pretty wild stuff really... but I am an artist, so diversity of lifestyle has this intricate beauty to me. I see all the struggles and triumphs as equally amazing, and equally critical to the full image of our lives. Like a painting you look at, you see the big picture, and it’s all pretty amazing when you see the full scope of it. Like, how the heck did I DO all that? How the heck did I GET through that? Often with depression and anxiety, you find yourself slipping back into old habits, and then as you get older learn new tricks, you are able to dig yourself out of this self defeating attitude you are so used to having, and snap back to reality... You realize, OH okay, THAT is where that feeling is coming from...
I do find the trials and tribulations of life equally enchanting because I am an artist. I am a fine artist, I don’t do computer art... it’s all fine art, but I do have a background in Illustration, so much of my work can be literal... but my main source of income from some years now has been childcare, and household work. I am also a survivor of anxiety and depression, I still deal with so much on that end, but I am doing things and have been working on it since I was 21, with professionals etc... to help cope with my inner child, and all the things that surround clinical depression and anxiety to live and lead a happy and natural life... I have def had my battles, as have many, and in these blogs I am sure I will discuss those thoughts and feelings...
Right now I am at some weird crossroad in my life. For the first time in years I finally HAVE the space I need to create work, have lot’s of it, and that has been a big goal of mine since December of last year... each year I create this goal, okay I am going to do this, but I get distracted... life is a constant distractor. And often I feel like I will never accomplish anything cause it feels like I am just surviving, working to survive, to take care of my family and kids... but they are so precious and important, so often my creative endeavors do take a back seat... It’s honestly been like this for years... but I am tired of that way of thinking... I want to have it all I suppose... So that’s part of my journey this year...
While trying to manage my home, make an income, become a homeschooler as remote learning is the only option this year, and much much more.. come join me on the ride... here is MY journey...
So I hope you enjoy my thoughts, whatever they are, happy, sad, angry, excited, stressful, I am just gonna share it all! Welcome to Peach Be the Journey, and I hope you enjoy this journey with me, whatever that it holds.
This was my train of thought today... I was going to post this on FB, but decided to not do that.. and rather just start this new blogger...
In this Covid world, so many things are changing in my personal and professional life... some things however remain the same... I am a mom to an incredible kid with High Functioning Autism, ADHD, ODD, and anxiety. I am a step mom to a very intelligent, and sassy 12 year old, about to be 13... I have a funny, smart handsome fiancé, who I owe so much of my well being to, and overall support in my life. Life is never easy, and becoming a merged family had been intense.. The journey very real... and I have to say my world is a lifetime of different than is was 10 years ago, or even five years ago...
In the last ten years of my life, I went from moving to GA from NYC, a place I lived for almost 9 years, to being married, to being a mom, to being an autism mom, to then being a single mom with a kid with autism and living with my parents, and then finally 3 plus year later finding my now fiancé, and building a life I never thought I would be living... but I’m doing it... somehow, miraculously, and at almost 40 years old, I look back and see how much I have gotten through... it’s some pretty wild stuff really... but I am an artist, so diversity of lifestyle has this intricate beauty to me. I see all the struggles and triumphs as equally amazing, and equally critical to the full image of our lives. Like a painting you look at, you see the big picture, and it’s all pretty amazing when you see the full scope of it. Like, how the heck did I DO all that? How the heck did I GET through that? Often with depression and anxiety, you find yourself slipping back into old habits, and then as you get older learn new tricks, you are able to dig yourself out of this self defeating attitude you are so used to having, and snap back to reality... You realize, OH okay, THAT is where that feeling is coming from...
I do find the trials and tribulations of life equally enchanting because I am an artist. I am a fine artist, I don’t do computer art... it’s all fine art, but I do have a background in Illustration, so much of my work can be literal... but my main source of income from some years now has been childcare, and household work. I am also a survivor of anxiety and depression, I still deal with so much on that end, but I am doing things and have been working on it since I was 21, with professionals etc... to help cope with my inner child, and all the things that surround clinical depression and anxiety to live and lead a happy and natural life... I have def had my battles, as have many, and in these blogs I am sure I will discuss those thoughts and feelings...
Right now I am at some weird crossroad in my life. For the first time in years I finally HAVE the space I need to create work, have lot’s of it, and that has been a big goal of mine since December of last year... each year I create this goal, okay I am going to do this, but I get distracted... life is a constant distractor. And often I feel like I will never accomplish anything cause it feels like I am just surviving, working to survive, to take care of my family and kids... but they are so precious and important, so often my creative endeavors do take a back seat... It’s honestly been like this for years... but I am tired of that way of thinking... I want to have it all I suppose... So that’s part of my journey this year...
While trying to manage my home, make an income, become a homeschooler as remote learning is the only option this year, and much much more.. come join me on the ride... here is MY journey...
So I hope you enjoy my thoughts, whatever they are, happy, sad, angry, excited, stressful, I am just gonna share it all! Welcome to Peach Be the Journey, and I hope you enjoy this journey with me, whatever that it holds.
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